I’m having one of those weeks. You know the ones. Where it takes you DAYS to do what can be done in one day, you always look tired and you dream of taking long naps. These periods of time happen once in a while to me and I can’t figure out what precipitates it. My shifts last week were not necessarily tiring. I had an all night flight, but I had plenty of rest and sleep when I got home. I have just been dragging. I have made it to every Pilate’s class and worked out every day but Sunday. I thought if I gave myself a day off from the gym then I would feel a little better. Not so much. I even drank lots of water and my favorite hydration drink, NUUN.
I had a list of things I needed to get done when I got home from work last Friday. I had calls to make, projects to finish and bills to pay. It’s now Tuesday night and I still have a cabin project to do and a phone call to make. I could have done it all in a day, but magically dragged it out for 4 and tomorrow will be five. The good news is, it will be all done before I go back to work on Thursday in Rock Springs for 5 days.
After much thought in the past 2 days of why I feel this way I’m sure it is a combination of stuff. First, I think I’m a little depressed. This is what happens when I can’t run. Any runner will back me up when I say that injury is a throw down. Add that to the stress Matt and I have with all our travels coupled with having 2 teenagers at home that are struggling to find their independence and I have a trifecta for sadness. Another thing, I dropped my carbohydrate intake under 80-100 to lose the last few pounds I want to lose and that can make your energy levels drop briefly. At least I’ve lost a few pounds! Woot Woot! Stress at work, stress at home,the never ending dog hair and the heat. Tada! There it is. Doesn’t make it easier, but it does make it better to know the possibilities in my lack of energy and motivation. It’s hard to be filled with too much self-pity when I realize how silly it is and how hard things could be. Plus there are many times when I've had the same stress or even more and managed to keep my energy up and motivation going. It could be my monthly cycle or (heaven forbid) I finally go into menopause! (completely sarcastic)
So I took a long nap this afternoon. I didn’t think I would sleep after 9 hours last night, but I did. I owned that nap! It was spectacular in so many ways.
This is exactly how I feel.
Daniel is feeling it too.
So the pity party is winding down, I plan to give out the party treats and start cleaning up tomorrow. Wish me luck!