How the hell did this happen?

Seriously. Today I am 50 years old.  I am not too thrilled about it, but not super upset either.  I am apathetic.  

EXACTLY

What does being 50 mean?  Where do I go from here?  I certainly didn't start out my adult life planning on being 50 and unmarried.  Life does change and morph into things you never thought it would be.  I'm OK with that.  

There is some great news though.  

I feel great!

I have a wonderful job!

I can do whatever I want.

That may be childish but life happened and here I am.  The options I have are endless.  I want to move and be a flight nurse somewhere else?  I can do that. (I won't for now because I love my yard apes too much)  I want to tattoo all over my body - bam, I can do that too.  Dating...eh!  I go out once in a while and meet some great guys but hang tightly to my independence.  I can't change what has happened in my life but I can plan (bahahaha) the next 30-40 years and brace for the adventure.  

Some days feel like this:

I'm in the red and life is in the green and they are about to push me over onto the tracks.  (Thanks NYC Metro!)

Overall the day will pass and it will be filled with Birthday wishes and I appreciate every one of them! I've already had some chocolate, caramel and a small piece of carrot cake.  Next is a short run with NEW (from an exchange) running shoes!!

 AND...I can still kick some ass.

Cheers to the next whatever many BD's I get!

(and bad grammar)

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