Bruce Jenner and that whole thing...

I didn't plan on watching the Bruce Jenner interview with Diane Sawyer.  I just happened to work the night before and spending my usual lazy day in bed post night shift I saw that it was on the schedule.  I had to watch.  I need to see how others handle it when a trusted loved one reveals such news.  

If you don't know why then refer back to this post:

Why can't I be mad

There are three parts if your really bored!!

The best news ever!  While I watched it, I realized I was just thinking in the same way I was BEFORE.  Before I was lied to and fraudulently treated by my ex husband.    YEAH!!!

What does that mean?  Well, I feel like it's been forever and I'm sure my friends and loved ones are probably thinking, "get over it".  I know I have wanted to move on forever!  Everyday I'm closer but lets face it, it's a slow go and I will never be the same.  But there is one thing that I am finally getting past.  The link between my ex, the anger and transgender.  

Lets face it, I'm not mad about the transgender issue and my ex.  I'm mad because of how and when he told me and the actions that preceded and followed.  I'm not going to get into it because I think it gives them life and power but it had nothing to do with the actual act of transitioning.  

I watched Bruce Jenner and I had the type of thoughts I had before.  

-He's (She's) not hurting anyone, let him be happy.

-He (She) should be able to be themselves.

And on and on and on.

In the last 10 minutes of the program I was thrilled.  There is hope for my angry confused and jacked up past couple of years.  I want to be back to that soul that accepted people as they are.  

Like I heard tonight, "If they are a good person before transitioning they will be a good person after".  Bruce Jenner tried to be honest to his spouses.  He was also struggling in a time that was SO far away from accepting differences along with being in the limelight.  

Most poignant is all the "I'm sorry" he said.  It's OK to be sorry that someone is hurt, even if your intentions are true.  

So maybe I can put this life experience aside and start judging people at face value.   hehehe

It's not like I'm going to TOTALLY change!

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Next blog I think I'll chit chat about running and trying to run this Marathon next month. AHHHHHH!!!!!

Giving it all up

I am trying to be a little more flexible with my schedule.  I enjoy picking up a little overtime here and there and sometimes I need to rearrange a few things.  


Saturday I am going with my husband, my friend Tera and her husband Jason to the Devil Dash race.  It's a 5K with 12 obstacles and a beer garden at the end.  It promises to be a blast, considering the company.  Sunday all four of us are hitting the East Canyon for another long hill run.  I love running with friends so my long run for Monday has to be rescheduled.  It was going to be for today, but as I mentioned in the last post I threw it to the side to take a transport for my work.  We transport cardiac devices and since I flew with AirMed as a cardiac device transport nurse before I joined them full time then they are kind enough to call me and give me an opportunity to take the flight.  


Yeah, it interferes with the long run I was going to do this morning, but I'll squeeze it in somewhere.  I don't regret it for a minute.  I love my job and I work with some great people.  It was a long complicated transport with a very sick patient, but we got that patient where they needed to be and we did it safely.  Every transport gives me the opportunity to learn something new and meet new people.  The facility we picked this patient up from last night was just awesome.  Even offered us snacks and drinks.  I'm sure we would have  taken them up on it if we thought we would have a second to even eat. 


I really do wish I could write more about my patients and the experience.  The laws of HIPPA are so strict and the last thing I want is to get called into my boss to talk about my running blog.  This patient was so very sick and was in a pretty good hospital, but that hospital didn't have the resources that a huge teaching hospital has.  The primary flight nurse was a guy that I worked in the SICU with, so I knew he was smart.  Together, along with the medic and respiratory therapist we still had a very high pucker factor.  Every movement had to be slow and organized.  There was at least 5 invasive devices/lines that if pulled out could have caused fatal consequences.  The feeling of handing the patient over to a well qualified team is amazing.  A final relaxation.   


I finally got to bed at 6am, which was 22 hours after I woke up the morning before.  I cancelled my barre class this morning and woke up at 4pm.  Right now I'm laying on the couch, blogging, eating dark chocolate, snuggling with my favorite blanket (woobie), watching TV and considering the odds that my bedtime is going to be early.  I'm also trying to hydrate.  I truly believe the answer to all physical ailments is hydration.  Especially if you work a job that interrupts sleep, is highly active or involves flying.  


Speaking of flying.  I spend a lot of time taking off, flying, landing.  I work with a small group of pilots that I respect immensely.  I have never been hardly even nervous with all the flying..until last night.  Don't get me wrong, best pilot ever!  But we do fly in airplanes that are meticulously maintained but are machines, none the less.  Last night on our final approach there was a light that didn't light up.  Meaning - the pilot wasn't sure that one of our landing gear was down and secure.  I heard, "oh that's not good", a request to the tower to fly past the airport to trouble shoot, then after about 1 minute he explained what was happening to the crew.  He was very calm and we were all very quiet.  One thing I've learned working as a flight nurse is that when things are tough you need to let the pilot do his job.  The pilot can flip a switch so he can't hear us, but they usually only do that when ton's of chaos is going on in the back and they are flying through some tough weather.  


So the plan was to fly past the tower so they could check our landing gear and make sure the light by the landing gear was on.  Apparently there is a light that comes on once the landing gear is down and ready to land.  It was the indicator light in the cockpit that wasn't lighting up.  That was a long 5 minutes.  I didn't know what to think about.  I wasn't scared as much nervous.  I knew that we could land either way it was just how well could we land.  Add that to the fact we had a patient that takes at least 7 people and 15 minutes to unload. The tower even offered to pull out the engines - get all the emergency peeps out and ready to foam us down and rescue us (DIRTY!).  Turns out the landing gear was down, locked and lighted up and we landed smooth as silk.  Ahhhhhh.   It was awesome.  No firemen though - dangit!!  The plane was taken out of service until it could be fixed, but we made it safe to the ground!  I work with some rock stars!


I don't like to leave without a picture - 

One of my favorites!

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The beautiful threesomes of Medicine....

Now lets just all get our minds out of the gutter!  I am talking about the ever popular Classic Triads website.  
It's been a busy week for me.  Everyday at work for either a shift, meeting or education and then trying to fit in my running.  Let's just say I am on day 3 of rest days.  Tomorrow isn't looking good either.  The good news is I have most of next week off and there is going to be some running going on.  But I digress....
Two of the shifts that I worked this week I was precepting a new employee.  She is a wonderful nurse with lots of experience and just as OCD as me.  We are a perfect preceptor/preceptee couple.  At least I think so.  It gives me the opportunity to teach and I really like that.  We had a patient with a head injury and so I did some research in order to freshen up my skill, since those patients aren't that common in the SICU.  The review led me to the website about classic triads.  They are three things that if you have all three it makes a triad and is usually indicative of a very bad problem, not so bad problem, or a rule of medicine.  You can follow the link above and browse the website if you wish.  Considering my week, which included an apology letter, I came up with "Kathee's Triad of Triad's".  Three sets of three issues that could easily equalize into an apology of some kind.  I'm not going to go into the issue of the apology I made.  Suffice it to say that I completed two of the three triads and at that point, it didn't matter what I meant, it was observed negatively and I like to move on and not get into little details of misunderstandings.  It wasn't important enough to re-hash and try to "be right".  Move on and lets just get to work! 
NOW:  On to the big reveal. This is just a working copy and I would take suggestions and ideas.  

You can click on the picture to enlarge.

Yeah, it was quite the time waster, but DANG, I learned a lot.

I have to get my butt to sleep, I have a shift tomorrow that I picked up as a favor to a great and wonderful person that needed the day off for family reasons.  I'm filling up my Karma bank!!

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